Saturday, 31 January 2015 0 comments

When I never missed my evening Prayer

I had been doing our school’s evening prayer since I was in grade two in pry school till I finished my high school but my evening prayer was never that interesting like when I was in grade eleven and there is a long story behind this scene. Today I thought of sharing it in my blog. To be true though I did our evening prayer for almost ten years but I never could chant all the prayers which is in the prayer book even by looking at it. I tried many times but failed to catch up all but I could hardly catch up few stanzas which are to be chanted with the slow rhythm and used to chant only that parts of all because I if chant the other parts without proper pronunciations and escaping some words, it’s belief to be a great sins so I thought it’s better not to chant that unknown stanzas. And because of that I always used to feel bore during the prayer hours and tried to ignore it. My almost all friends used to chant thoroughly like the monks in the monastery. Though it’s not to be said but it’s the fact.

But when I was in grade eleven the scene got changed and I always used to wait for the evening prayers and even the morning assembly. These two moments became my best parts of the entire day and it’s all because of an unknown girl. She was junior to me and I used to get chance to see her only during the morning assembly and during the evening prayer. I met her first time in a school bus (PHPA) when we were going to school. At first sight I just saw her but didn't noticed and it was all normal but gradually when I realized myself there was a kind of attraction towards her from my side. But I was good enough to hide my feelings and never thought of telling her may be because I was not ready for the consequences both bad and good. So I always kept her as a girl that I admired and it went quite well but I lost her after a year as she couldn’t make it up from grade ten and she had to leave the Gov. school.

Since there were many students which couldn’t be accommodated at once in the hall for the evening prayer, so the students were divided into two batches grade wise and I was quite lucky because we fell under the same batch. I always used to feel boring and sleepy too but that year’s evening prayer was quite enthusiastic for me as I used to get a moment to glance her. And that was the time when I never used to get bored, forget about feeling sleepy and it was really crazy but I liked that feelings.

One evening one crazy thing happened again, we used to meditate after the prayer for few mins which I never used to do actually because I used to watch her while she was meditating with a certain fear in my mind that what if she suddenly opened her eyes and caught me watching her straight?  As I used to sit straight to her that evening it happened actually when I was looking at her straight and she suddenly opened her eyes but I quickly put my sight on the ground before she could notice me. I’m not sure whether she noticed me or not but I felt like she noticed me and I was thinking what might she thinking about me. I felt so embarrassed for a few sec and could not look up to her thinking that she may be looking at me but that might not have happened actually. I felt just like the protagonist in the story “nothing can change the taste of peanut butter” one of the interesting short story of grade eleven. It was really really crazy. To be cont…

                                                          D.K Thulung Rai
Wednesday, 28 January 2015 0 comments

Recollections of my Ambitions

I think these days are the last days to recollect my ambitions before I actually see my horrible result which are now like unicorns and soon they are going to fly leaving only me behind because after the result, the result will decide my journey and not me. It’s quite crazy but wanted to keep as my beautiful memory in my archive before it gets crushed. When was in primary school, my ambition was to become a pilot because I thought it’s really cool to fly over the air when everybody looks up from the earth wishing if they could also fly in that one day and I too used to think that way. Whenever our teachers used to ask us about our ambitions and hobbies, I used to say pilot and used to get really puzzled between ambition and hobby because I thought they are same.

When I reached secondary school, I got confused with my ambition and sometime I used to have more than one and sometime none. Sometime time I used to say teacher, sometime doctor, engineer so on and sometime used to say “I don’t have ambition”.

And when I reached high school, my ambition got more twisted. I thought of becoming electric Eng. because I was really interested in working with the electricity but again later I thought if that is not possible what then? So I decided not have a specific ambition because if I didn’t make it up with that, I wouldn’t be able to bear the pain and decided to do whatever I get leaving all to my faith. Sometime I thought of becoming bio teacher because I thought it is easy to teach, sometime chemistry because it is an interesting sub and sometime forest officer because people used to say that the forest officers gets good amount of pay so I took bio with math after 10 but never thought of becoming a doctor or any related to hospital because I don’t like hospital and I still do and pray that I don’t have to face that.

Later I thought I can become at least a JE if I can’t make up to CST and so I dropped bio in 12 but faith betrayed me and I spoiled math. So no JE forget about CST, my math mark will not led me to become even a math teacher and my Phy too got stuck with the math, so irritating. So I think I have to leave everything up to my faith now because I have no other option. Let’s see what is written in my faith.

                                                                        D.K Thulung Rai
Tuesday, 27 January 2015 0 comments

I suddenly became health conscious

I was 72 in weight a month before and my BMI was fat so I thought of losing some weight but I didn’t know how, so I thought of doing with a simple diet.  My weight mustn’t be higher than 65 and this is my mission. I couldn’t do the proper diet but thought of eating less having no idea whether it’ll have any effect or not. So I decided to eat less than my actual appetite and I’m doing that since last week of Dec 2014 and even started with evening jogging and some simple exercise in the evening since I’m not able to carry out in the fresh morning. Because I can hardly wake up at 8 or 9 and it’s not possible for me to jog in the odd hours. I’m still continuing with it but I have no idea whether I’ve actually lost any weight or I’m just scarifying with my especial food and wasting my time.

I’m thinking of weighing my weight in Feb of 2015 and if there happen to be no change in my weight even a single kg then I’m sure I’ll start again with my daily routine and eat as much as I can, no matter how fat will I become but if there is decrease of even a single kg in my weight than I’ll make sure that I’ll continue with my exercise no matter how hard it’s for me.

I think it’s really not good to be overweight since from a young age itself, health wisely and even personality wisely also. It’s really hard being over healthy with very less stamina where we can’t do whatever of our age does easily like playing soccer and basketball forget about participating in road races. And there is a very high chance that we may suffer from BP and diabetes which are life-long diseases and which are very popular in this generation where people can hardly escape from these after crossing 30. Some even experience these diseases from youth itself and I don’t to land up like that because I hate eating same medicine for life-long like my mom going through now.

I, myself find sometime very odd when I look at myself in the mirror especially when I wear my school uniform and realize myself why sometime my friends calls me as motu but I’m absolutely fine with that but sometime I become quite worried regarding my health. So let’s see how effective my diet and work out are going on hope acceptable. I’ll get know in few days soon.
If any of my blog viewers have any idea about how to lose weight sooner or gradually can kindly leave the tips, I’ll be so grateful.

                                                                 D.K Thulung Rai
Sunday, 25 January 2015 0 comments

I'm waiting and praying

Today is 25th jan 2015 and i'm waiting for our class xii result to be out soon by this last week of jan probably. I'm neither very afraid nor very curious  about my result because I know how my exam went. i'm only waiting to see the marks no matter how much did i scoured. I'm not at all happy with my exam. It is so sad that a maths student spoiling his only back bone maths paper and had a little expectation with the english ll as I had already spoiled my english l, which was also unfortunately leaked in the history of BHSEC for the first time that also in our batch, how unfortunate batch are we! and we unfortunate students of Bajo hss knew only when we are out of the exam hall. 

There is no charm in this years class xii's result, so sad to know. And i'm personally very angry with the one who did this for english paper which is one of the most interesting  and easy subjects, and i know it's not favourable to say that english is a easy subject as it's a very vast subject but for a high school level in Bhutan and for a science student english is considered as a interesting and easy subject because we have to read only few pages for the exam and we are done if we have a strong english understanding power, then english seem to be just like a short and sweet fascinating short story. I was literally shocked and unhappy when i heard that english paper was leaked and our english paper ii will not be assist and that weekly changing decision  of BHSEC. I even had a night mare on this topic where we are to do re-exam for all the subjects and our timetable was out and when i analysed myself, there was nothing in my brain. it really was a night mare.

About mathematics which i considered as one of my favourite subjects since my primary schooling would betrayed me like this in my lives one of the most important exam. i don't know how it happened but i could attempt only of 80 points including my worst MCQ part. Even after a thorough practice i could even see the question in the test which i didn't know from which chapter was it, it was like general question for me. I don't know whether i should blame to my maths teacher for this or myself,  I personally and we all the maths student are not very happy with our our maths teacher,one should never do like that with the innocents life. He hardly finished the syllabus but i don't want to blame any-other for my failure and embarrass myself.  And some questions which appeared to be easy Q, even for that the answer never came unfortunately and it was because of that i didn't finish my paper,l could have done en ki min ki and rushed to Sec B but unfortunately that too didn't happened either. There is a saying in Lhotsham(Nepali) that says, in the most unfortunate day even the ox gives birth and same kind of thing happened with me that day. The worst day of life I should say where I merely went mad and almost spoil my Chemistry paper. I was so mad that I even forgot about my Dzo ll paper ( It's a long story again. i'll share it in my laters post ).

Almost all of paths are  blocked because of this single sub and all of dreams are crushed and i hardly have a hope of qualifying for any colleges but even if I didn't make it up, I"m not going to give up in my half way like this. I'll get up some how and start my journey again.To be true, since I was considered as a one of the bright students in my colony since my childhood and all of my neighbours too considers that way, it'll be so embarrassing on my part if I didn't make it up to them especially my mom,I may not be able to face her and she to her colleagues who all would questioned her all the time about me. I'm not at all prepared for that scene but if it's to happen then who can prevent that form happening. I only wish that, no matter how is my marks, I don't want out land up at home.  

                                                            D.K Thulung Rai
Monday, 19 January 2015 3 comments

The ‘hot stone bath’ in Paro

The ‘hot stone bath’ is one of the most popular activities in Paro. I have had never heard of it before but when I reached in Paro, I saw it for the first time and experienced it. They believe that the hot stone bath will cure the back bone, knee pain and all. It’s like the hot spring bath. For that they firstly collect some logs or fire wood and heat the stone to red hot. Then they put the red hot stone in the wooden box called waa, it’s like a bathtub where they put cold water. After putting 5-8 red hot stones the water becomes so hot that one can hardly bare. In that hot water one has to sit for not less than 15 minutes and the technique is one shouldn’t at all move inside the water and stay stationary. If you try to move a bit also, surely you will have to jump out of the waa because our body can’t bare change in heat. In the sense the heat is same but when we move we’ll feel like the water has become so hot, may be because of some biological reasons may be like adaptation.

My bro arranging the the stones
Heating the stones to red hot

When I heard about the hot stone bath for the first time, I thought that they will heat some stone for few minutes and make the water warm only but in real it was not the case. In my first cousin sister’s house we planned to take hot stone bath on one fine day. Me and my three cousin brothers we brought some small logs from the nearest forest where I had a tough time following them. They start arranging the fire wood and stones which look like a small Chorten. At night we light the fire and heat the stone to red hot. One of my brothers start putting red hot stone in the waa and made the water so hot which I could never bare.

 First was the ladies turn where my mom could not even walk to the room by herself after the bath because of dizziness. She was already quit sick  at that time. After a long wait finally my turn came and I decided to stay in minimum of 30 minutes in the hot water so I stayed. When I came out after 30 minutes I was absolutely fine but as soon as I walked to change my dress I felt so dizzy that I couldn’t even keep my head erect and change the dress because I didn’t know the technique to stay stationary for few mins even after coming out of the water and that was actually adventure for me. I tried my best and change the dress and quickly went into the kitchen and drink one cup of hot tea mixing with cold water and slept for almost half an hour again. I felt so tired and my face become like I’m so sick. And after half an hour I was quit fine. It may be nothing for Parops but for me it was absolutely new thing and I really had a good moment, so I thought of keeping as an archive for my memory. Next time when I visit Paro, this will be one of the programmes I would do for sure.

                                                                    D.K Thulung Rai
Saturday, 17 January 2015 0 comments

My first trip to Paro Tak-tsang

On 13th jan 2015, me and my family we went to Paro Tak-tsang, one of the most secret and holly place in Bhutan. It was my dream come true to visit the Tak-tsang. It was a very adventures place and a great views. we had a great moment which I would never forget in my life time. I felt like i'm really blessed and all my wish is to visit the Tak-tsang more and more.

                                                                                           D.K Thulung Rai

Expressing my own thoughts