Recollections of my Ambitions
I think these days are
the last days to recollect my ambitions before I actually see my horrible
result which are now like unicorns and soon they are going to fly leaving only
me behind because after the result, the result will decide my journey and not
me. It’s quite crazy but wanted to keep as my beautiful memory in my archive
before it gets crushed. When was in primary school, my ambition was to become a
pilot because I thought it’s really cool to fly over the air when everybody
looks up from the earth wishing if they could also fly in that one day and I
too used to think that way. Whenever our teachers used to ask us about our
ambitions and hobbies, I used to say pilot and used to get really puzzled
between ambition and hobby because I thought they are same.
When I reached secondary
school, I got confused with my ambition and sometime I used to have more than
one and sometime none. Sometime time I used to say teacher, sometime doctor,
engineer so on and sometime used to say “I don’t have ambition”.
And when I reached high
school, my ambition got more twisted. I thought of becoming electric Eng.
because I was really interested in working with the electricity but again later
I thought if that is not possible what then? So I decided not have a specific
ambition because if I didn’t make it up with that, I wouldn’t be able to bear
the pain and decided to do whatever I get leaving all to my faith. Sometime I
thought of becoming bio teacher because I thought it is easy to teach, sometime
chemistry because it is an interesting sub and sometime forest officer because
people used to say that the forest officers gets good amount of pay so I took
bio with math after 10 but never thought of becoming a doctor or any related to
hospital because I don’t like hospital and I still do and pray that I don’t
have to face that.
Later I thought I can
become at least a JE if I can’t make up to CST and so I dropped bio in 12 but
faith betrayed me and I spoiled math. So no JE forget about CST, my math mark
will not led me to become even a math teacher and my Phy too got stuck with the
math, so irritating. So I think I have to leave everything up to my faith now
because I have no other option. Let’s see what is written in my faith.
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